Father you know it’s been a long time since I’ve earnestly sought you. I know you’ve felt my discouragement towards your children and the Church they represent. I’ve felt you tugging at my heart for these past 6 months to return to you. I’m sorry for closing myself off from your teachings, for mistrusting the writers of your Word and the speakers you’ve appointed to preach your story. I don’t regret the questions and critical thinking that that season of my life brought, or the lessons I learned, but I do regret that it hardened my heart to any growth you had planned for me.
I’ve missed feeling your spirit for so long now, but Father I’ve been so confused as to how to even begin getting our time back and rebuilding our relationship. I didn’t even know where to begin, and I’ve been too stubborn to admit it. I know you’ve felt all my turmoil, and I’ve felt you paining over me in this regard.
Father thank you for showing me your faithfulness for my life and for not giving up on me, nor the plans you have for me. I have convinced myself that it is wrong to believe that you will make me someone great, even though it is the desire of my heart. Lord, I know that you are powerful and loving enough to use me in a great way, but towards your glory. Help me to keep sight of this and lose all desires for taking the credit.
Dare I say it, for I know the weight of its capacity, but use me God to serve your Kingdom in the ways that you desire. Make me an agent for change that creates a legacy, your legacy. Align my heart, my thoughts, my actions, and my vision for the future to be the same as yours. Not my will, but yours, be done on earth.
Amen.